The dissonance that i am experiencing, and the tension that it is causing me, is wearing me out. It’s difficult, and it definitely is a hard struggle.
I’m so tired.
It is all but an illusion; a mere facade.
You cannot, and will not, see through me.
All over again, Steph. All over again.
But recall the former days when, after you were enlightened, you endured a hard struggle with sufferings, sometimes being publicly exposed to abuse and afflictions, and sometimes being partners with those so treated.
For you had compassion on the prisoners, and you joyfully accepted the plundering of your property, since you knew that yourselves had a better possession and an abiding one.
Therefore do no throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that you may do the will of God and receive what is promised.
“For yet a little while, and the coming one shall come and shall not tarry; but my righteous one shall live by faith, and if he shrinks back, my soul has no pleasure in him.”
But we are not those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who have faith and keep their souls.