i could ask God “why?” a million times, and the answer would still be the same.
God will never give me more than i can handle.
but yet, it is still something that i cannot comprehend.
God wanted me to be a nurse, but He didn’t tell me how hard it’d take for me to be one.
yes it took me an extra year to complete nursing school, but i got there anyhow.
now almost a year into actual nursing, i am told that i cannot.
“no clinical work” for me, it seems.
“too stressful”, even if i was doing very well, and even if i loved what i do.
then what? what is it, God? what is it that you want me to do?
why are You taking away from me what i love most?
i know You have Your reasons, but i don’t think i can handle it anymore.
there is only so much i can humanly take.
and i’m not sure i could carry on any longer like that.