i feel like stripping myself of all obligations.
i feel extreme pressure- from my family, from school, from work, from finances, from doctors, from chronic illnesses, and from friends. some would ask me “why? “, but i would ask you “why not?”. there are simply too many things that they want of or from me. it feels like each of them has their hand on me, and they’re dragging me on my heels toward what they each expect of me.
i feel extremely torn, extremely anguished, that my obligations do not include me getting well.
like, what do i do when i can’t go on anymore, leashed and tugged at by so many people and so many things?
i can’t. obligations are called as such for a reason. there’s no escaping, no running away. unless there comes a day when it’ll be ok to openly say, “i’m not ok”.