no. i’m not ok. i’m not ok at all. and i don’t want to talk about it.
all i really wanted was a friend who was willing to sit beside me and listen to me. that’s all. i don’t want a friend to analyse what i say and rationalise with me. i don’t want a friend who tries to cheer me up or tries to be optimistic (which i can never be). i don’t want friends who tell me it’s gonna be ok, or that i should try harder, or that i should trust in God, yadah yadah yadah. and i have MANY friends who do all of these.
i just need all of you to shut up. i know you have good intentions. but just shut up.
because i DON’T NEED all these. and i DON’T WANT all these.
and so from here on, i know what to do. i really know what to do.